Recipe Post! Poached tilapia with spinach garlic pasta.

OH hey.

I want to share a recipe I worked up a few weeks ago and have made a couple of times.

This is great for folks who need to jam some more greens into dinners. This is also pretty easy to do and goes fairly quickly. Remember babes, anything you don’t personally like you can swap out.

This is what we’re making:

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[image description: photo of pasta in a pan with lots of greens and speckles of spices.

Great things about this recipe:

  • Make it vegetarian/vegan by omitting the fish.
  • Make it heartier by adding other proteins rather than the fish. Use leftover chicken, pork, use tofu. You want your flavor to be something that will go well with a garlicky flavor.
  • You can use leftover salad with any greens. I’ve done this with spinach, mixed spring greens. Use boxed or bagged salad for less spoon use.
  • Other spoon conserving tips. Parboil your pasta when you have the energy. That means just boil it until it is almost ready, remove from heat. I cool it and put it in the fridge. That way when it is time to bring it all together, BAM into the pot it goes. The pasta finishes cooking and tastes great. Use whatever pasta you want.

You’ll need:

  • Chopped garlic. I very frequently either buy peeled garlic from Safeway I like the O Organics whole peeled garlic. The cloves come in little packs that are about a head of garlic each and individually sealed. They last quite a while. Other options. The whole foods fresh minced garlic in the produce section if I’m cooking a lot is a great deal, but won’t last as long. Alternately, you can buy the kind that comes in a jar like this. Pro tip if you buy that kind, use a bit of garlic powder in your dish to give it a bit more oomph.
  • Pasta- I used some linguine. If you’ve got kids fusili or other spiral pasta might make it easier to eat. I don’t recommend a macaroni type just because there’s no sauce to fill it in.
  • Greens! This time I used baby spinach. One 5oz box of organic baby spinach lasted partner and I for this meal and some bomb salads. My other go to is the O Organics Organic Half & Half Blend Spring Mix & Baby Spinach from my local safeway. The mix of greens is really nice. Herby. Also bonus points if you can get your hands on some fresh herbs. Whole foods carries these small packs of fresh herbs that I just love using. They are just enough for one dinner so I don’t feel like I have a bunch that will go to waste. Suggested herbs: oregano, parsley, basil thyme. You can also use Italian Seasoning mix. Whatever you got. I also used chili flakes and pepper. Also if you need to, pre chop your greens. put them into a bowl/ziploc and have them on deck.
  • Tilapia! We had a bag of frozen fillets.
  • Cheese! Also optional. I used shredded asiago.
  • Butter or olive oil.
  • Chicken or veg stock.

NOW. I will warn y’all. In the photo above I’d fucked up my pasta timing so my fish wound up going cold. Don’t do that.

Let’s get cookin. We’ll assume your pasta is either par boiled or otherwise ready to go.

  1. Preheat a skillet or frying pan then drizzle in enough olive oil to coat the bottom fairly well. You’ll want there to be a bit more than it takes to fry off the garlic.
  2. Once your oil is nice and hot, add in your garlic, with or without chili flakes. Note: this is how much I used because I used the leftover for a while. You do not need to be so extra.

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[image description: a pan full of chopped garlic, olive oil and chili flakes with a sprinkling of pepper on top.

3. This won’t fry if you use a good amount of oil. Lower the temp until it is bubbling fairly gently and stir. You don’t want the garlic to burn or get too brown. You want a toasty tan color and amazing friggin smell. Once it is done, you’ll want to carefully pour most of the mix into a bowl and set aside. Leave some of the bits that remain and some of the oil. *if you’re not poaching fish skip to 5.

4. Put your tilapia into the pan, drizzle a spoonful or so of the garlic oil into the pan and pour your stock over it enough to cover your fish. Cover the pan and let it steam. Lightly season your fish with a smidge of pepper and/or other spices. I used paprika and a touch of seasoned salt.

5. In a pan large enough (unless you just made your pasta, then use your pasta pan) pre heat on medium to low. Depending on the size of your fish, wait until your fish is almost done. Add in your pasta, your greens and drizzle with your garlic oil. I used a lot cause we love garlic. Mix well, add in a little bit of chicken stock (less than a quarter cup) for moisture and cover. Let simmer and stir while the greens cook.

If you like your greens more tender let it cook longer and add a bit more stock. If you want them crisper take them out earlier.

Once your fish is done and your greens are done, put the pasta on a plate or in a bowl, top with your cheese. Put your fish on the side.

Notes:

This meal took me over an hour because I didn’t really plan. I was going to make something else and decided that was the night I poached fish for the first time. On poaching fish. Small delicate tilapia does not take that damn long to cook. I overcooked mine because I was afraid they wouldn’t be done. I don’t suggest this recipe as your first time poaching fish.

You could also do cod, herbed salmon, leftover fish. Vegan proteins seitan, fake meats of your choice. Go nuts! You could also use nuts. If you like them pine nuts would be good I think. You can also expand this recipe easily by sauteeing other veggies. Mushrooms,. carrots, peas. Or if all you have is frozen heat those separately then toss in your pasta. If you have canned, drain them well and for extra flavor, sizzle them quickly with some of your garlic oil.

Don’t have tilapia? Add a couple of cans of tuna, well drained if in water. If in oil, add it to a pan and then add some garlic and lightly saute it. Just enough to give it a touch of color and then toss with your pasta.

If you aren’t a fish fan. This can also work with things like lemon chicken, leftover rotisserie chicken, roast chicken. Go nuts babes! If you try it please report back!

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How Moral Am I?

Hi babes.

Today we’re going to talk a bit about why the idea that health is a morality issue is not good, in fact it is damaging to a lot of us, ableist, classisist and ultimately antithetical to fostering actual wellness.

Let’s start with the personal shall we?

I am not a Healthy person. For our purposes, when I capitalize the H I’m using health in the context of the binarist idea that there are only the states of Healthy and Unhealthy. I include the group of beliefs that surround front loading things like weight and body size as the arbiters of health, of appearance as proof of health etc.

I was not born a Healthy person. I was premature, quite ill. NICU livin, heavily jaundiced preemie who has had a lot of health problems for life. There is nothing I could do save getting a full body transplant that would put me into the category of capital H Health.

Even if I had made “perfect” food, movement etc choices my entire life, I would still fail. If we look at this idea that if we are Healthy we are good, what does it mean for someone like me? In terms of the idea of wellness in the context of doing things to improve how your day to day life goes, if I am unable to attain the Goodness of Health, why would I bother?

There are many factors that impact how a body deals with or doesn’t deal with their health and wellness. Most of these are not moral qualities. I find that when we start adding morality and ethics to how we approach dealing with our bodies in this context, things get gross quick.

Example. If you use social media and have an interest in health or wellness, try this. Look at an influencer and watch how they speak about wellness and what they don’t say. If they are pushing a “tummy tea” or “detox” do they talk about how most of those things are really just laxatives. Do they talk about things like supporting your natural detox capabilities as in, your kidneys and liver? Or do they show you well edited scantily clad photos that highlight their thinness? Do they tell you that they were holding their breath and had lighting etc etc?

We all know operating under capitalism sucks so on one hand, I don’t hate them for hustling. We all got bills to pay. What I do hate is the way the culture of Health is going.

Why am I talking about these things?

I’ve been really wanting to delve deeper into health and wellness, I want to talk more about my own approaches, stuff I’m doing etc but I also need for y’all to know where I am coming from.

All this is to say, if your ideas about Health and Wellness depend on any of the following:

  • Sizeism
  • Racism
  • Classism
  • A cash hustle
  • Shitty information
  • The idea that there is only one state of healthy

You’re gonna have a hard time here. That said, I DO invite you to stick around to maybe learn some shit.

I don’t believe that we should all have the same methods, ways and means of engaging with our health and wellness. If all things were equal and there was no such thing as biodiversity in humans, these ideas of only one true way would work. And yet they don’t.

So welcome new homies. I’ve got some posts saved and we’re going to explore health and wellness. I want to talk about my personal struggles with my own health and talk more about why, how and when I engage with my health isn’t an indicator of morality.

Feel free to go back and read this post, click around for some of my fat posts and stay a while because we’re gonna talk some shit.

FULL DISCLOSURE also. I will use amazon affiliate links because your auntie likes coins. They aren’t much but every little bit helps and bitches gotta eat. I will not make any promises about stuff I link, I won’t shame you if you’re not into it, we not doin that.

Nor will you likely ever see dramatic before and after photos. I won’t tantalize you with images of me in my underwear or anything like that. I’m not that Auntie.

Thanks for visiting and I hope you come back soon.

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Your Wellness Sucks.

Hello darling dears. Today Auntie Shannon has on their ranty pants so buckle up babes.

So I’ve been doing a lot of research and reading about health and wellness for both the health and wellness of my little famfam AND in relation to some writing I’ve been doing. Y’all mother fuckers.

The first thing that bothers me is this. A lot of people who are supposed experts in these things, have mistaken good marketing for decent advice. I see a lot of people who have taken a 2 week nutrition course on the internet and call themselves experts. I see a lot of people who thinly veil their fatphobia in how they talk about things like diet and exercise and frankly, I think it sucks.

Let’s talk a bit about why these things bother me so much. The first problem is that when we substitute Capitalism and commerce and profit for advising folks or talking about our own experiences, things get weird. I have had folks market dumb Kardashian diets, they want to sell me ebooks on juicing celery to solve all my problems, they don’t know how basic human biology seems to work but, they are making money so who cares right?

Look. While I am not currently a fat person, I have been a fat person. I don’t need my factual nutritional information tinted with fat hatred. It is unnecessary. From my point of view, not everything needs to be that in order to be useful. I turn it off. It isn’t the information I want not to mention, so many people are completely unwilling to remove the object of weightloss from the pursuit of better health.

WHOA.

Right?

Here’s the thing. After years of being within fat communities, the thing that changes folks lives isn’t the constancy of fat hate. It is the moment when they feel free to pursue the health they feel is in reach. In order to get there, we have to start with the idea that health is not an absolute state. The belief that there is ONLY healthy and not healthy, that healthy is a moral imperative and that health is some arbitrary bar set by whomever is not useful.

We have to understand that this view of Health (capital H) as being a single state or a particular appearance is not only destructive but it ignores the actuality of the biodiversity of human bodies. It is ableist. Health is not either or. What looks like better health for me, might be misery in your body and there is nothing wrong with that. That is how we were made. It is how we live and it is far less damaging to accept and acknowledge that than it is to insist that you and I should and must be healthy in the same way.

Part of my issues have involved being triggered by heavily disordered beliefs about food and eating being touted as health advice. I don’t see enough people acknowledge that their intermittent fasting proselytizing could be a serious eating disorder trigger. I would love to see some more judicious use of content notes and warnings. I’d like to see more folks say, hey if you have a history of disodered eating this could really trigger you. It triggered me and it took me a while of not doing nice things to my body under the guise of trying out this wellness thing to realize, I was in a serious danger zone.

In my view, while it is tempting to sit in the position of superiority and have the good feedback that one is the One True Knower of Wellness, it is ultimately damaging. If we look at wellness culture on social media, there is often backlash. When you build your profits and platform on the One True Way methodology, when things change all hell breaks loose. That is not good for any of us.

So all this said, I’ve been doing a lot of changing my eating and nutrition and whatnot and research into different health related things and I will be blogging about that more often.

The rules.

I will not step into the anti fat rhetoric. My narrative and beliefs here do not come from a place of centering my weight, your weight or weight in general as the marker of health. I don’t believe that is a good methodology for me, my body or my life. Also I won’t pander to it for views. Full stop.

I will in time talk more about it but, I do not believe in a binary healthy or not healthy view point. I believe that each of our bodies does some weird shit and we need to be able to get information that isn’t predicated on us being ashamed of that. This includes how fat my or your ass may or may not be.

I will NEVER take you or your ideas about health or wellness if you use the phrase “glorifying obesity” as some sort of methodology about why fat people should hate themselves into change. Full stop. Nope.

Fuck shame.

SO my darlings. That is where I’m coming from about wellness and why I see so much of it as being so flawed and ultimately damaging not only to the folks consuming it but also to the folks creating it.

So if you want to know where I’m going with it, please come back. I’ve got my shit somewhat together and have some posts planned and scheduled for this.

Thanks for visiting babes!

And if you’re interested in my other writing, come check out and like my brand spankin new writer page on Facebook. 

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Crockpot Lemon Garlic Chicken-Recipe time.

Below find a photo of the delicious chicken I made. Photo was taken a couple of hours before it was done.

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[image description: a whole chicken in a crockpot. It is sprinkled with spices, sprigs of rosemary and a few bits of lemon are visible.

OKAY babes. I have fallen ass over teakettle with my crockpot. And I made a delicious and super simple chicken in it. After deboning, there is enough chicken for a few meals for partner and I. Find my recipe below.

You need:

  • 1 chicken. I bought a 5lb fryer.
  • Some lemons. I used two medium sized ones.
  • Handful of rosemary sprigs. Just this once I will say use fresh.
  • Garlic 1-2 bulbs worth.
  • Herbs De Provence. This one* is my personal fave. I don’t have to use a ton of it to get that flavor.
  • Other spices you like. I used smoked paprika, black pepper and about a half teaspoon of seasoned salt.
  • Half cup or so of chicken stock.
  • 1 crockpot.

Prep your area.

Food safety is important. I laid out some foil to put my chicken on while I was working with it and that cut down on the mess. I also really hate getting raw meat on my hands so I wore gloves.

Remove the giblets and/or neck. You can toss these but I put them in the pot.

Next, slice up your lemons. Put them aside. I buy and use pre-peeled garlic. If you have hand troubles do this. For this type of recipe, go with whole cloves over chopped.

Let’s get that chicken ready.

Jam lemon and garlic into the chicken. And a stick of rosemary. Between pieces of lemon, sprinkle some seasoning in there. Next, season your chicken. On top, on the thighs etc, rub it around. Leave the chicken.

Next, put your stock (or wine if you like) into the pot. Then season it with paprika, pepper, and stir well. Drop in some of your garlic, a rosemary stick and some lemon.

Gently put your chicken in. My super secret is I put the chicken in breast side down for extra juiciness.

After you get the chicken in, jam in the rest of your garlic, rosemary and lemon. Set it on low and go to bed.

When you start smelling garlicky goodness, check your chicken. When it is up to temp you can put it on keep warm OR gently take it out and debone it.

Use your chicken how you like. Put the rest in the fridge.

Mistakes-

Don’t cook it too long, I fell asleep for an hour or so and yeah. I did that and the meat is so tender it is kinda mush. Still delicious.

I will be serving my chicken mushy weirdness (it is ugly but amazing) with wilted spring green lemon pasta. You can also use the shredded chicken for salads, serve over rice, etc. A few other notes. We like VERY garlicky food so used more garlic and we mashed up the garlic when we took the thicken out. There won’t be quite enough liquid left for stock but keep it anyway for the flavor. If you like a different spice profile, use the spices you like. For straight up lemon pepper flavor, less garlic, no paprika and more pepper. Experiment because honestly, as long as you use seasoning it is gonna taste good.

Go forth and enjoy.

 

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When Times are Tough…Fashion.

Hello from your most irregular Auntie folks.

Yes I KNOW I said more posts but, life does things.

So instead let’s talk fashion. I was talking to a Baby Bat I know and they were fairly astonished by my Gothable View of fashion. There are affiliate links in here. Marked with an * for everything not covered by Amazon or Shopstyle.

What is Gothable?

Gothable in my world are not specifically Goth things that I can and will put in my wardrobe. I think for a lot of folks, especially us Office Goths, we can’t always be decked out in Victorian Luxe a la my fave Auntie Jillian. Some of us would rather not. So let’s talk about things I find HIGHLY gothable. With two brand new pin boards.

I personally have a philosophy that if I can buy an item, I will because I like it. This also means I do frequently as I’ve mentioned shopped at places folks disapprove of for various reasons. My current booty is about chonky teen sized and a lot of jrs cut clothing fits me well so I’ve been buying some great pieces at Hot Topic. *GASP* THE HORROR.

I also bought pieces from times when Gothyish was in because here’s the thing. Most of us can’t afford to buy exclusively GOTH brands nor do all of us have the skill for DIY. I KNOW OMG THE LIFESTYLE RAWR OH GOD DIY OR DIE…ahem.

Sewing is a skill. I personally have made clothes and they looked okay but sucked. Most of the time, even if I’m recycling shit, I just don’t have the skills to make anything cool. And my efforts tend to a.) not look good and b.) wind up costing as much as retail in time, spoons and materials. So DIY if you can but storebought is goddamn fine.

For my first pinboard, I labeled it affordable Gothables. There’s stuff from Walmart, Etsy, Asos, Target etc.

The great thing about anything alt or dark flavored being trendy is that those styles become knocked off and accessible. Can’t afford Killstar* you can probably find things similar if you look that fit in your budget.

Below is my, if neither size nor budget were a consideration Goth Dream Lewks. Designer shit that wouldn’t fit me etc. I use these as aesthetic ideas mainly.

Another method of Gothables for me is accessories. GOSH. Y’all. Between Etsy, Ebay and Amazon and whatnot you can find some spooky accessories for every price point. Evil Empire links ahoy.

 These cuties are under ten bucks a pop and I personally love them. Love skulls? Can’t afford real bones? Items like this are great. Unlike when I was a babybat, it was ding dang hard to find cheap spooky jewelry that was shiny AND as these are nickel free.

Wanna DIY it? Grab some plain chokers like these and voila, slide a lil skull on it and voila. Fashion.

Would you rather buy handmade? Some of my fave shops.

UglyShyla. (Do NOT CLICK if you are scared of dolls) I really love Shyla’s pieces. I probably have four or so. She goes far to make things that are both lower and higher end prices. Nice quality.

Vandyland makes some cute necklaces. I want to say I have 2? Horror icons, movie references. These are not expensive and light to wear.

Osteal. Like bones and witchy looking pretty things made of metal? Check out this shop. I have a piece from Osteal that was gifted to me and is really nice. Very reasonable pricing.

Sumayyah Said So.  This shop is run by a dear friend of mine. I have, gosh five pieces from them? Anyway, they make beautiful jewelry including earrings, wrapped stones and necklaces. US shipping only.

Shakur Arts Studio. Looking for something really unique? Another shop run by a dear friend. They have some really beautiful and creative fiber/yarn art pieces. Yarn and beads they also make some really lovely collage art.

Wolftea. I don’t know how I found Wolftea but I have a couple of their antler pieces and I just love them. If you are going for a forest witch or Dark Mori inspo, this shop has it.

My secret to finding accessories is that I limit my search terms. For instance, search bone jewelry on etsy and find a HUGE choice of items that range from 5-10$ on up through the 100s.

This is also where I encourage you to get your thrift on. Whether online or in the shops. If you have holy grail items, set yourself some alerts in ebay or Poshmark. When I set my search alerts I usually will do the name of a style and my size. Or if it is harder to find, just the name of the style.

Here’s the thing about aesthetics. Some folks just like a Dark or Gothy Aesthetic. That’s fine. Some folks are ALL in with the culture. Also fine. Dark aesthetics being trendy isn’t the end of the world. One brand *cough Killstar* isn’t newly making being Goth expensive. This has been a thing forever, not because of trends but because capitalism. Be mad at the right thing.

And lastly, y’alls. Have some fuckin fun. Aesthetics doesn’t have to be srs business even if it is Goth Aesthetics. Enjoy yourself. Wear a crop top. Get your booty shorts on. Wear winklepickers with broomstick skirts and band tees. Do you Boo.

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Poor Folks Noms- The Taco Bucket.

Hi loves. I’m doing a new thing, I’ve wanted to start posting some of my recipes and stuff but I was feeling shy.

I’m hopped up on dayquil so let’s go.

This series is a lot about being satiated, poor, and having leftovers.

SO what is a taco bucket?

Taco bucket came about by me buying way more ground beef than I needed at one point. It was on clearance and good meat but I HAD to cook it all. Also, I had a bunch of leftover stuff and taco stuff.

You need protein. You can use whatever you want. Tofu, ground beef, leftover chicken is great for this. If you catch some sale rotisserie chicken it is good and you can use the carcass for soup.

You also need seasonongs. I will use a part of a taco seasoning packet and then other spices. I like to use a lot of fresh garlic, either whole cloves or mince. Also, a word. A LOT of pro chefs and TV chefs shit on things like pre peeled/prepped garlic. Fuck that. It is ableist. Real talk, That takes a lot of energy to prep and sometimes the extra dollar you pay for some of the work to be done for you is worth it. Personally, I rely heavily on those because I don’t have space for a lot of prep nor do I have steady enough hands for fancy knife work.

Remember all ingrediants are optional and this is just a jumping off point not a whole ass recipe. Adjust to your needs.

Other seasonings I will use: (affiliate links to amazon ahead, not the best prices but Auntie likes to make some coins)

La Costena Whole Jalepenos. I always get the kind that has carrots too. These I’m good to slice/chop. .This brand the peppers are nice, not butt burning hot. The mix of carrot is just amazing. Pro tip, keep your eye out for sales on these even when you’re not making a taco bucket. I keep a few cans on hand and they can go great with burgers, rice, all sorts of stuff. The same brand also makes “nacho slices” if you don’t want to slice the peppers.

I also keep various spicy spices on hand. Paprika, chili powder, garlic powder, cumin, oregano, etc.

Now what else do you need?

A bucket. This is a dish mean to be shared. Given that I cook for two+leftovers I will use something like this. I tend not to use ceramic, glass or metal because my hands shake and I drop things. Also pro tip, serving in these type containers makes for a super quick and easy lunch prep.

You’ll need your preferred utensils. I’m very partial to my fave, the SPOONULA. I drop and spill a LOT and this type of tool works while I’m cooking and serving. I got my first one at the dollar store and now have about ten of them. Other pro tip, check the dollar store for discount tupperware type containers too.

Depending on your protein you may need a bit of oil. I prefer to start with oil so we’ll go from there.

First, look in your kitchen. If you’ve got the spices that sound good and a protein you’re off to the races. You can put stuff like: beans, corn, stewed tomatoes, leftover rice, tortillas, taco shells, raw or tinned mushrooms, bell peppers, spicier peppers, you can do potatoes, jicama, whatever you got. This can be what I can a throw it in type dish. If you think it’ll taste good, throw it in there.

Now before I get to the cooking order, let’s talk a bit about the end game. What you want to come out with is a bucket full of delicious taco type fixings. If you are trying to stretch your dollars and food, add hearty stuff like rice. Using stuff like corn or extra veg can really help not only fill bellies but if you have folks leery of veggies you can get them a new flavor to veg. If you really need to use that leftover chicken, or whatever this is how.

OKAY so you need a skillet and your protein. I usually make ground beef or turkey.

First, heat up a bit of oil in your pan. Enough to drop in your garlic and if you’re using them onions. Wait for the pan to get sizzly hot and drop em in. PRO TIP. If you like onion flavor but not texture, dehydrated small mince onion is the fucking shit. My favorite is from Whole Foods (we’ll talk about whole paycheck another time) and they are similar to this. If you like some extra kick, drop some chili flakes into the mix when the garlic starts to brown.

Once you’re garlic is lookin brown and smelling delicious, put in your protein of choice. If you are browning meat, also have your powder spices on hand. I will liberally spice through the cooking process. Once your protein is half done, pour some of your pickled jalepeno liquid into it. Using that juice is one of my secret weapons.

If you have fresh veggies depending on if they are leafy, or root veg start adding them. I personally for instance prefer my bell peppers to still have a good crunch so I add the last. I add my jalepeno when the meat is about 80% done to get the flavors all loved up. I like to add mushrooms raw or canned before I add other veggies. If you’re using canned corn you can save that. Also if you’re using black olives or fresh tomatoes. If you’re using canned tomatoes you can add those too.

NOW if you’re using a fattier beef, you’ll want to drain it before adding extra stuff. I usually get 80/20 beef or if I’m using turkey, I don’t mind the juiciness. I won’t add water and shit like taco seasonings packs, I use those sparingly and let the juices from the stuff in the thing as moisture. Or if my protein is dry, I will add some stock or a wee bit of hot water.

I like to let stuff simmer. Also, letting stuff cook down is a great way to save some spoons. If you aren’t able to stand to watch something simmer, once your stuff is all in the pan, turn that shit down to med-low and sit your ass down. Let is simmer down. Remember, long simmer usually means more flavor.

How to assemble your taco bucket. If you are serving this with rice, put your rice in about 5-10 minutes depending on your preferred rice texture and let it simmer.

While your stuff is simmering down and getting delicious, when it is about 10 minutes out from serving turn the heat off and let it rest. Use this time to get your servings together. Since it is just Uniballer and I, I throw the meat and veg into the bucket, we both like the same stuff so I’ll add in my canned corn at this point, or my fresh tomatoes. If we’re being fancy I’ll also throw in cheese, salsa, sour cream. Or sometimes it is literally a bucket of spicy meat.

If you’ve got folks who need other options, make it a team effort. Everybody gets a bowl. Line up your protein bucket, buckets of fresh fixings and let folks go to town.

NOW you can serve it on tortillas, in taco shells, eat it like a dip with chips (my preferred method for shoveling), use the bucket protein as salad topping.

LEFTOVERS.

I almost always make enough for at least two full dinners for Uniballer and I. I will use it the next day for a salad, or as burrito stuffing. Sometimes, I add rice second day if we eat more of the protein.

Great things:

Easy to customize!

Fucking delicious!

Leftovers!!

Play with what you put in it. If you have food needs, allergies, intolerances it is super simple to substitute your needs. Vegan? Use tofu or tofurky, or chikin, or for real try using cauliflower. If you’ve got a ton of picky ass kids, each kid gets to have their OWN SHIZZ. And you can ask older kids to bus their own dishes. Make a bowl, clean a bowl.

Please try out doing a taco bucket and if you do, tag me on insta @weebeasty or come back and link me to your pics!

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Goth it up on A Budget

Hello my darlings!

Your fave Fine Ass Old Auntie returns. We’re going to be talking about clothing and accessories that are budget friendly AND easily Gothable.

First a definition of terms.

Gothable- an item that can go Goth with attitude, accessories or styling or cause you say so.

Below there will be a pin board full of straight and plus size ideas. I’ll toss in some more masc stuff as well. I will say I am no expert in masc leaning clothing because frankly I am Femme as Fuck.

Some personal style history. In the past 20 years or so, I’ve gone from OMG SO GOTH MY ASS IS SHINY IN DAYLIGHT as in wearing a lot of club clothing, vinyl during the day type goth. I’ve done ruffly lace fancy Goth. I’ve done punky goth, some kinderwhore. A LOT O GOTH. I think I’ve not done a lot of Victorian Goth or EGL or a bunch of other styles because $$ for fashion haven’t been plentiful.

In the last decade or so I tend towards the slightly absurd office goth. I like comfy. I like a stretchy waistband. I wear a lot of skirts, I love dresses. I’m very partial as I’ve mentioned to the skater skirt. I’m not very particular about where I shop. Let’s talk about that for a sec.

Some of my links will be fast fashion. I personally am not in a position to vote with my cash most of the time. I just can’t afford it. I like the idea of saving for an amazing ethical piece but in reality, for me and a lot of folks that is impractical.

Prior to my weight changing, I really didn’t think about it because most of the indie dark witchy brands just (and still) don’t go above a size 10 or 12 if you’re lucky. Even now that I’m a chonky 10/12 a LOT of the designers I love are not checking for my lil ass.

For instance I am OBSESSED with Sisters of the Black Moon and I have literally dreamed of this dress. The FLUIR DRESS BLACK LINEN. It costs $305.00. Now, yes craftmanship and everything. I’m not mad about the price. That said, if I had that type of cash to spend on a single garment, nah. I could probs fit into Large
Bust: 31 1/2″
Waist: 35″
Length: 54 1/4″

But the way I’m built, no way because um, my bust is not smaller than my waist. I run into the same problem with the beautiful things from Noctex. This item I could save up for BUT, my titties. I have them. Big ones. This is not built for someone who is not the shape of the model if that is the look you’re going for.

Often in Goth circles, folks will get up in arms over Goth being trendy. Remember that H&M Girl with the Dragon Tattoo collection? I saw a lot of hand wringing and ZOMFG MALL GOTH WE ARE SPECIAL type lamentation and y’all, wrong attitude. Yes, DIY is great. However, it is not just a matter of being able to slap shit together. Not all of us can design. Not all of us can sew. No, not everyone can sew together clothing. That is bullshit. AND often, the materials to make one shitty franken thing cost as much as just buying the damn thing.

If you can make something awesome. if not, shit store bought is fucking fine.

One of the other reasons why I love Goth as a trend is that the styles circulating in the indie and high end Gothdom, come down to earth and will fit my ass and the asses of my fat friends. If you’re mad at mall goths, you’re mad at folks who likely can’t afford to sit with you and, you might as well click away.

Ahem.

Also a lot of what you’ll find in the pinboard is office appropriate. Yes in theory we all want to wild out and wear what the fuck we want when we want but, puppies don’t appear out of nowhere when we want them either and bitches got rent to pay.

I’m not including shoes because that is a whole other thing.

Some tips.

If you cannot go full goth at work for reasons, little touches are great. Spooky jewelry from the cheesy Halloweeny stuff to beautiful handmade occult or bone jewelry. Make up is also an option. From a classic wing to a fierce AF black lip. The fun part is figuring out how much of your freak flag to fly.

My opinion, much like my style is pretty easy. Do what makes you feel fancy and if someone is doing none of the following:

  • Feeding you
  • Paying your rent
  • Fucking you
  • Paying you in general

Nobody gives a shit what they think about your aesthetic choices.

Let’s talk affordability. That is also highly subjective. Two years ago, I couldn’t afford an unplanned pair of 30$ shoes. These days with my improved credit lines, I can usually work it out to spend more. Do you.

Let’s get our mall goth on. I suggest HIGHLY following me on Pinterest. I am putting together a LOT of idea boards. I will mark stuff that is expensive to me in the fantasy boards. Full disclosure, some of the links I get a tenth of a penny if you click em.

 

 

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Walk Walk Fashion Baby- Killstar and Hot Topic Review.

Hi babes!

Let’s talk some fashion I’ve picked up recently.

First we’ll talk Hot Topic. I have come full circle back to being a mall goth. Or my body has just decided to be chunky teenager sized and HT has stuff that fits me that I can afford. SO let’s talk about some of my fave things.

I am a HUGE lover of the skater skirt. I wear them a lot, tucked in, with a geek tee, etc. Love them. Hot Topic has these gorgeous velvety skater skirts in straight and plus sizes. Y’ALL THEY HAVE MOTHER FUCKING POCKETS!

[image description: the view from above of teh author wearing a black velvet circle skirt, with their hand in the pocket]

MOTHER FUCKING POCKETS.

Ahem. The waistband is wide covered elastic, for reference my waist is usually 29-31″ or so depending on how the wind is blowing and I picked up a size Large. It is roomy enough I could have gone with a medium honestly. The stretch is quite nice. Pulled up high to my natural waist, it is almost knee length. The plus sizes, go up to their size 5 (About the same as Torrid) and waist sizes 52″ – 56″ .

IF you are a fat babe, do consider trying one on even if your waist is a bit bigger than the listed sizes because velvety material and a good stretch waistband mean you can likely fudge your sizing a bit as well as try wearing the skirt on different parts of your belly for fit.

I also picked up the galaxy print one because yes I am still obsessed with galaxy print. I would have actually paid retail for both skirts and y’all know Auntie hates retail prices. I HIGHLY suggest these skirts. They have a pretty good variety of sizes and colors most of the time. If you’re on a tight budget, get on their mailing list and wait for a good sale. They have them often.

Now to stroll to the high end area of Gothdom, I bought some stuff from Killstar. So if you’re not into dark aesthetics, you might click that and immediately go WTF…y’all. Killstar is in fact expensive af. I’ve been stalking the items I got for a while and when they had a big sale recently I hit it immediately.

I picked up my third pair of sneakers I’ve ever owned. I got these high top, spiked velvet platform beauties.

Sorry screen reader friends the images are as follows from the left:

[left image description: a top down view of black velvet sneakers with a spiked ankle strap and spikes down the back]

{middle image description: the back of the high top black velvet sneakers with spikes up the back, and the lower leg of a spider web print tall sock]

[far right photo: a top down view of the bottom of the authors outfit. A small bit of velvet skirt over black tights clad knees, grey and black knee high socks and black velvet sneakers]

These are the velvet version of the Unholy High Tops. 

First impression (this is my first Killstar order and I had intended on doing a little unboxing video but my phone was broken..next time babes) was WOW. The packaging is really beautiful. Your recipet comes in a lovely heavy black envelope and somewhere on the branding it says something like occult luxury. Hell yes it is.

I also picked up a few other items, the socks I’m wearing today and some other bits. I’m wearing the All Caught up Socks. Now, having come of aesthetic age in the time of terrible bullshit acrylic socks that were tiny I was not really expecting a whole lot. I was shooketh. The socks have a nice heft to them and are quite soft. My calves aren’t huge but often socks like this I have a hard time fitting into them. I don’t recommend them for large calves or plus size folks who want them to the actual knee.

The socks are nice but I wouldn’t pay full price for them. I’ll stick to Sock Dreams for fancy socks. I also picked up some mens shirts on clearance. I am glad to say that the mens 2xl tee fits a big fat man with a big belly pretty well if a bit tight across the shoulders. The mens 2xl sleeveless tee, makes a super cute mini dress for me. I’ll be wearing it a lot in the summer.

NOW my loves the shoes.

For context I LOVE GOTH SHOES. I’ve had dozens of pairs of Demonia shoes. Oh Demonia, I’ll save a whole ass post for the triumphs and hearbreaks of being a Demonia lover.

These shoes, I literally gasped when I opened the box. The velvet is so beautiful and soft, the spikes are soft but look hard? Weird but it works. The shoes look heavier than they are. They have a solid 2″ platform, no heel. There is some arch support so if you don’t have super high arches like I do, it should be enough support without an insole. I’ve got super high arches and my insoles fit fine.

The shoe is nice and light, wide feet should fit just fine with a lace adjustment. There is an inner zip on the shoe which I appreciate because sometimes in the morning my feet are too stiff to slide into high shoes without a zip.

I’ve been wearing them for a few days and they are very high quality. Everything I got from Killstar is great quality. This is such a departure from a lot of the goth brands I grew up with. So is Killstar expensive? Yes. Is it worth it, I’m going to also say yes.

If you don’t have big baller money, do sign up for their email list and watch those sales. Make sure you load your wishlist and check it every now and then for discounts.

If you want to order, feel free to use my referral link here for 5$ off your first order.

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Over 40 Skin Care-new goals

Hi sugar!

Let’s talk about skin care. I’ve been doing some changes, seen some progress and discovered some new goals.

There will be some affiliate links so watch for the *. I get some pennies if you click or buy.

First, the first bare faced photo of yours truly of the year.

[image description: the author. Brown skinned femme with no make up on. Smiling a little]


SO I mean, I hate to brag but y’all look at me. Had you told me even at 30 that I’d ever a.) post a no make up selfie OR be proud of my faceballs, I’d have laughed in your face.

If you’re new let’s talk about my skin struggles. I’ve had oily skin on my face forever. At one point, I had a dermatologist just say, oh wow. My skin is also very reactive, sensitive, easily irritated and acne prone. A whole ass hot mess. Add in that my face scars if I look at it crooked. I am also in perimenopause which means, my skin goes buck fucking wild for no reason.

First let’s talk about my current routine.

I don’t do most things on a schedule. Just like with my hair care I tend to feel out what my face wants and deliver. My current round up of products on rotation goes like this.

Oil Cleansers:

DERMA E Nourishing Rose Cleansing Oil*- I grabbed this on sale and it is okay. If you are scent sensitive don’t buy this, I thought it might’ve had rose oil in it but it just has a rose scent. Scent doesn’t but me. If you wear full foundation, this one probably won’t do you good. I tend to only use it if I’ve got on light make up (concealer) or if I’m not wearing any.

Nyx Stripped off Cleansing Balm– This is an all time fave I will go back to forever. If you love the Clinique take off the day balm, this is a great dupe. The cost is far lower. Head to head here’s how they stack up. Cost. Nyx winds hands down. Nyx loses a couple of points for being slightly scented, Clinique has no detectable smell. Both work great at removing full coverage foundation. They can easily remove the 17 pounds of mascara+liner I like. They are both great formulations.

boscia MakeUp-BreakUp Cool Cleansing Oil* This is my third product try from boscia and I feel a little, eh about it. boscia is one of those brands I really wanted to LOVE but it didn’t really move me like that. This cleansing oil is good, it has a tiny bit of scent not much. I fell for branding and really wanted to love it. It is just a meh for me. Once my bottle is empty I won’t repurchase.

Foamy/lathery/second Cleansers:

Tree Hut Skincare Purifying Cleansing Gel*. I love this cleanser. Some of the ingredients are not the greatest, we’ll talk about that but I love having it in my stash. It works the best for me pre-chemical exfoliation. My skin absolutely loves it. I get squeaky clean without the squeaky feeling.

Garnier SkinActive Face Wash with Aloe Juice*- I had a coupon and wanted to try out this line because I LOVE the sheet masks and Garnier is usually pretty good to me. This is a loose jelly texture, no smell I can detect, super gentle and my skin just loves it. This is pretty great for days when my skin feels grimy or generally a little irritated or peely.

Andalou Naturals Meyer Creamy Lemon Cleanser*- Andalou naturals is a newer to me brand and y’all. I love this brand the way I wanted to love boscia. I don’t know about the brightening but, I just love this cleanser. It does have a slight citrusy scent that isn’t overwhelming. It smells like it has citrus in it. My skin just loves this stuff. It is creamy and doesn’t foam, cleans nicely and leaves my face feeling soft af.

A few honorable mentions. Sometimes I still use my liquid african black soap on my face. It is SUPER drying and I usually only do it as a mini mask when my face is acting a damn fool. Also if I have any sort of irritation. I also almost always have a bucket of Noxema on deck.

Now, if it isn’t a mask night this is what I do at night before bed.

I’m looking for new toners, right now I use Shea Moisture problem skin toner. It is…okay.

After toning I go back to my ride or die Claire-ity 25% Vitamin C Serum* y’all. I’ve been using a C serum for about 4 years. I’ve tried drugstore, high end. I’ve tried liquidy serums, cream c, powder. This brand is my ride or die. Great price point at 15$, it is super gentle and I have absolutely seen a difference in the hydration and smoothness of my skin when I’ve gone a few months not using it.

Next I use a retinol cream. Retinol is another thing I’ve used for the past few years in one manner or another. My fave now discontinued one came from the ordinary. I’ve been searching since. I’ve gone through a few kinds of retinol and this one from Nuva Skin has been great for me. The jar is air tight so no contamination, it is a very rich cream. This is a 2.5% retinol product that also has hylaruanic acid, aloe and other skin loving stuff. For me, cruising at 2.5% has been great for my skin.

Then I lay on some moisturizer. NOW y’alls. I fucked up. I was fbing late one night and came across some super organic fancy ass skin care that is normally out of my price range. I had a few bucks in my paypal and saw that they have sampler kits that with the code, NONTOXIC comes to about 4$ shipped in the US. I grabbed one and okay. The cleanser is nice but not amazing. The rosewater is yanno rosewater. The deep hydration moisturizer tho. Y’all. This is the first moisturizer I’ve used in a while that just, my skin eats it up and LOVES. It is also out of my price range rn for one product. When I can afford it, I will be buying a full size jar.

My last nightly step is I slather my face in Rosehip oil that I got at CVS or Walgreens or something.

I’ve been using some masks but I think I’ll save those. Basically I do a deep clean one on Saturday then a chemical exfoliant midweek ish.

My goals last year were mainly to get my skin cleared up, fewer breakouts. I accomplished that. Also, the texture of my skin has VASTLY improved. I’ve got a glow now. My skin feels plump and silky.

This year my goals are as follows:

  1. Help myself avoid further hyperpigmentation and continue treating what I have slow and gentle like.
  2. MORE hydration.

Basically that’s all I want to do. I feel like my skin glow up is going pretty well. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get back into higher end skincare later this year and we’ll have a post about questionable ingredients, money and whatnot.

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OH…I didn’t see you there.

Well actually I did and I am a lying ass liar.

Full disclosure, I kind of lost my want to blog because I didn’t think I had anything to say.

I do but it was a thing.

And then the domain registration for this little area came up and I was going to let it go and changed my mind.

SO hi.

I’m your host Shannon. I am a chunky, Black, genderqueer old ass Goth. I like beauty, shiny things, clothes, make up and booties.

I’ll be resuming blogging here after I do a bit of a make over. I’ve got plans for shoppable faves pages. Pinterest stuff and whatnot.

SO if you wanna come along, please come back and visit.

In the meantime, below find a photo of your naked faced host.

[image description: the author, a Black femme wearing glasses, with gray faux locs from the waist up. They are wearing a galaxy print hoodie]
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